I’m writing this post to apologize. It’s been a perfect storm of a year and while I’m finally pulling myself out of the mess, I’m embarrassed and disappointed at how long it’s taken to regroup enough to function, let alone even get to come back to the boards. Sorry for the long word salad, if you would like to skip to the tl;dr it’s after the *** below.
So, first off, I’m pregnant, which is a Good Thing but it has not not without its share of Bad Things accompanying it.
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Last fall, I took on a new FT job because my freelancing from home was patchy and I wanted to get out and be more social. I also found out I was pregnant during that time. When I miscarried a couple months later, I just about lost my mind. I knew I was going through various phases of emotional depression, very experienced at seeing the symptoms since a former boyfriend went through the same thing when we were living together, but I couldn’t do anything about it on my own (and my husband, for all his good qualities, is not at all experienced in handling depression so I had no real help there). I dropped out of most contact everywhere. It was pretty much all I could do to go to work with a clean shirt. Even going to the couple cons I did, I felt like I was mainly going through the motions, because I had already paid for my space and it was on par with forcing myself to go to work, just doing the same steps but with going to a different state.
I finally got turned around and then got pregnant again in February and this time (unlike the previous one) it super knocked me flat. I went from being depressed and not being able to mentally handle doing something extra like tackling my 100% full forum inbox, to being physically unable to stay awake long enough to do much of anything when I came home from work. I’d literally lie on the break room couch every break and lunch, and come home and take a huge nap, get up and eat dinner, and then pass out again.
I’ve finally hit 20 weeks (halfway there!) and while I’m still paranoid every day about whether things are going alright, I’m at least up enough outside of work to be able to 1. write this post, and more importantly 2. have found a better job for myself that, while temporary, has allowed me to quit the job that’s been so physically taxing and will let me transition back to working from home.
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So the tl;dr from all this is that I’ve decided that I realistically am not going to be capable and do not have the energy (mental or physical) to keep up with the wyrm game as well as prepare for having a baby. I’ve decided that I will be selling off almost my entire squirm (with the exceptions of a few sentimental favorites), beginning in person at Anthrocon, at my dealer table K01. Of course I will adhere to the game rules as best as I am able to, as far as pricing and also recording the names of people who purchase registered wyrms so I can confirm ownership transfers, but I just don’t think I can physically handle packing boxes up and keeping track of shipping at the moment. I’d like to still be involved in the breeding side sometime down the line since I have the Einhorn project going, and I have several special approvals I’d still like to see happen, but for now I think it’s best if I head into semi-retirement.
Please note I will not put wyrms on hold for anyone, and I don’t plan to put limits on the numbers of wyrms an individual can buy unless it starts causing problems. I would also like to avoid huge morning rushes (D can have those! Ha!) so if you have more than 5 wyrms in your physical possession, registered or unregistered, please do not come by until an hour after the dealer room opens. If you want to buy some and aren’t coming to AC, proxies are totally fine, but I do need to know the forum names of which registered wyrms are going to whom. Also as usual I’ll still offer swaps for newbies who get pulls from the random draw that they don’t bond with, so please feel free to share my table info with any friends who might be thinking about sticking a toe in the game.
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I did have one trade I was super late on and I finally shipped out some weeks ago, and I did promise a couple specific wyrms to be sold to someone so I will uphold that if there’s still interest, but as of the moment I can’t access any new forum messages, so if you have any questions please email me directly at ponyscribbles@gmail.com.
EDIT: Trade offers are also totally welcomed/encouraged at any time, especially if you know you have a wyrm I was previously interested in. However, please be aware that if we haven't finalized a trade agreement, the wyrms you want may sell.
EDIT #2: Sales rules updated due to previous non-compliance I wasn't aware about. Sales will be conducted on the forums with main priority going to people who can have their wyrms picked up at Anthrocon. Please see my new post on this.